watch how roger defends himself !

Discrimination only generates hate

Ever side-eyed the fat babe, your friend’s friend or maybe just a random meat bomb on the streets? Well, I have. Honestly I have been discriminated for my size too in the past. It kinda feels bad … Nowadays I just keep a neutral stance regarding such aspects. When u start seeing all humans as humans instead of “things” like goods on the shelve, its much easier to keep a positive perspective. Of course everyone would be attracted to different kinds of females, but really … u can also treat different females as friends… At least I will try to … We can all try …

Unforgetable Steamboat, Feed the white dog

For all the homies that came to my house today, thanks for making the trip to the east. Hope I have been a great host . The weather has been forgiving and hope u all can find your way home. Also, thanks for not messing up my room and my racquets. Xiuwen had flu, but no worries i sprayed my room with dettol after you left. Alan, fan club president of XXX, you left the card for your birthday girl at my place. Joke of the day is, Tiny-arm maggie aka Batman hero commented that my modified 13.5 ounces PDR is very light. Like what Michael Benolli would say … this is uuuuuultimately organissssssation slowwwwwly slowwwwly unbelieveeeeeeable. BTW, Edmund still has a secret he hasn’t told me about, which according to him has something to do with me. -__-”’

I had a nice dinner tonight except for the fact that it will always remind me of my weakness. During the preparations I displayed the full devastating effects of what my anger can do. The point is not on the issue but rather how violence can slip into our minds without us knowing it. I was actually pissed cos my maid did not listen to my instructions even after i told her about the thing specifically for 16 times. Although she was clearly in the wrong but I kinda overreacted with the remarkable display of physical strength involving the smashing of a marble table with my bare fists. Nothing to be proud of really…

I kept the piece of marble that broke… It should serve me well by reminding me that anger can be so destructive and nonconstructive. It engulfs you like the waves and seek to crack your wall of defenses. At your weakest moment, you will finally give in to the rage that consumes you. The best way to defend is probably to fill our heads with positive thoughts, maintaining this wall and keeping it sturdy. Guard against self-centeredness and egoistic behavior. Avoid conflict escalation by being rational. Feed the white dog oh brother, may we continuing feeding the white dog.

Some stuff i picked up …

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less.

We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgment; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life; we’ve added years to life, not life to years.

We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We’ve conquered outer space, but not inner space; we’ve done larger things, but not better things.

We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we’ve split the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less; we plan more, but accomplish less. We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we have more food, but less appeasement; we build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication; we’ve become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.

These are days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet to kill.

It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom; a time when technology has brought this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to make a difference, or to just hit “Skip Ahead”…

By Dr. Bob Moorehead

Interesting piece of literature from Bob. The advancement of knowledge and power to reach goals have made the process more important than the goal itself. A king had 2 sons … 1 went down to the city to see how life is out there. He ended up living in the city, built himself a hut and leading a group of robbers. The king then sent his second son to look for his brother. Instead of responding to his brother, the elder son cursed him and asked him to leave. Its pretty typical of people to lose focus then end up doing something else and enjoying it. The foundation that the goal was built upon wasn’t strong enough and was easily deviated.

Also from Bob I learn that power can be used for good and evil. A wise Indian sage once told me a story about 2 dogs. A black one and a white one. At noon everyday, they would be led into a ring and they would fight with each other for 1 hr. So I asked the sage, who emerged as the winner? And he said … The one you feed more. Astounding!!!

When u look into the mirror …

What do u see? I see a seed that has fallen and is dead. With its death brings forth life and life more abundantly. Some however refuses to die because the notion of death to ourselves to bring about growth in others is not a concept many of us can fathom. As much as we love ourselves, through my many years of experience giving in our myself has never truly satisfied myself. Only through contributing to others have I really found some true joy. Its really all in the perception. Perception is relative to each of us and each of us is affected by our own paradigm. The paradigm shift from me, I, myself to others is not something that can be easily explained.  But sharing and caring breeds peace in our hearts, u really need to try it to experience the joy that it brings. ^^

Gay Day

Interesting day i had. Played tennis this morning and my infectious grunt got the other courts going and soon everyone began grunting until a lady shouted “Can u all stop it, its annoying.” It took a leap of faith to make us all realize that grunting is quite irritating. Well, not that i did it on purpose.

Next, I went to Xiuwen’s house where i was constantly being insulted and demeaned by 2 very inconsiderate ladies. They were hurling sneer balls at my first my hairstyle, then my shoes, my dressing, my green underwear, my choice of lollipops to even my inept ability to use high tech items. It is a shame that the 2 smu ladies failed to see the good side of me. (Gentleness, kindness, helpful, considerate, peace-loving, the list goes on …) lol … I was kinda too involved with the singing to care about them though. The dinner was okay… a bit too oily for my taste haha …

Another working day tomorrow, numbers crunching… OMG I LOVE MY JOB !!! sorry for the outburst, I heard from a famous guy called Michael Benolli that if we recite attitudes in our head we can make ourselves believe that tomorrow can be a better day. Fact is, I think I still feel the same. Then again … Life is not all about what we like, it includes also protecting the ones we love and helping the less fortunate. Much of these needs sacrifices to be made, including taking up responsibilities and walking tall. Despite my gay day, I will press on to the challenges ahead. Hope we can all do the same.

My ladder on the wrong wall.

Well since young I have always been looking for “the one”. During my search, I can only compare my experiences to some of the following modified movie titles. They include “Curses and the flying flowers”, where the flowers were thrown back at my innocent face, “ps i love u, but i also love someone else”, where a third party was involved, “How to lose a guy in 2 hrs”, i was the guy, “kungfu Hustle” and many more. “Woah man why don’t u commit suicide then?” yelled the really insensitive guy at the far corner. Well, there are many other things that I can look to other than just focusing on my rotten luck or failures with the opposite sex.

The focus of our purpose can be lost so easily when problems are viewed with a magnifying glass. Its not easy to constantly maintain the winning attitude. Also, I’m sure my problems dun seem as glaring to make me a motivational speaker. However the point is that no matter what, having an emotional barrier to things will not make things better but the hardening of the heart will often cause more pain. Sometimes we just need to learn to free fall without a safety net. Who knows, there might have already been a net in place. Be free, find your purpose in life and pursue it but check the wall first before climbing up the ladder!

First Blood

A little something before I leave my home to my office, just felt that i needed to blog to reflect on the inner-self. Its a little easy to lose track of what you are sometimes. When u don’t know what you want, or you focus too much on what you want and lose the bigger picture, u kinda lose your sense of purpose. We all need to have goals and aims to stay focus and work towards to don’t we? Working for ourselves is sometimes just like a snake chasing its own tail, then when u finally get to it u kinda realise u are just messing with yourself. So dear friends, look where u are headed before u take the first bite ok ? Let’s turn back before you lose it all.